The Ulitmate Disease: The Human condition

Oh sleepless nights, I hate you. I woke up at 4:30 with these thoughts and one hour later, 20 mins before I need to get anyway I decided I might as well type them out. Thank you Linz... I mean Hippy Riversong, for the chat last night, you help solidify what I already knew!

The human condition, what the hell is wrong with us? Why are we so afraid to connect to people, why am I so afraid dot connect with people, sometimes on even the shallowest of levels. We walk down the streets with our heads down, we sit in coffee shop to be "social" but we bury out heads in laptops, ipods, and books. We stay at home and blame it on the crappy weather. We don't smile at strangers because we are afraid they will think think we want something from them. People don't like friends stopping by unannounced because they don't want to be caught off guard, with their house messy, them unshowered, exposed as the "imperfect" selves they feel themselves to be.

It all started in the garden of Eden (metaphorically speaking). There was a time when humans stood around naked dancing in fields of flowers, now not only does society require us to cover ourselves with clothes but it also requires us to cover our inner selves with a mask because if we are too connected with people it makes us strange. We can't just be Love and compassion, vulnerable. We have to Be a doctor, a mechanic, a stay at home mom, a barista in a pretentious "Artist" coffee shop. The apple is the human condition, the apple is fear, judgment, and shame. I don't want that apple anymore.

I KNOW i am connected to everyone, and now I want to let myself feel connected to everyone... and I know i can't be. I can't really be connected to people overcome by the human condition... they will just pass part of their disease back onto me... so now I am on a quest to find as many disease free people as possible... or at least people less infected and/or taking pills to cure it... If you are one of these people I want to know you!